jkhwang

so i’m going to spend some money for a longboard.. i totally bought one last night with free shipping no tax from ebay.. payment went through and everything.. until i wake up this morning.. checked my email.. and was notified by paypal i was refunded the money because the sender said “very sorry sold out” WTF…. who posts shit online and then makes me pay and then says oh im sold out… what a FKER! shit take down the auction then! got me all excited for my board.. now im boardless. =/ and down because i wont be getting it.. ah =/
This will be mine someday…

but i really love my wallpaper! aha…
she will be mine someday as well.

only if calculus was that easy……

and only if life was that easy too… ahah…

So yesterday i went to swim then a while later went to go play ball.. and some tall ass mother fker had a break away and i was the only one closest to run to do something.. here i am running down towards him thinking he might LAY it up.. nope he DUNKS it.. *sigh*…… but other that… nothing cool happend ahah.

BE LIKE MIKE!!!!!

shwayze – corona and lime
shwayze- hollywood

sleep is awesome.. i think its better than eating. yet.. while you’re sleeping theres the whole other half of the globe awake and taking care of their business. how crazy is that?

this week has been tiring.. wednesday cell function test. friday chemistry test and 2 page SINGLE space paper.. wtf single space? who still assigns those? but the sleeping at 3:30 and waking up at 7.. is not fun at all.. rofl however friday was pretty fun.. costco pizza. bonfire/beach. and saturday was SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP! ahah

this coming week gotta get back to swimming. well while im watching the broncos vs. saints i gotta go figure out how to draw DNA…

ahah i really have been forgetting to post on my “blog”… nothing really to say other than school is nothing better than every other year… work has been alright… classes are alright…

Swimming everyday.. but i dunno if its doing anything.. and yeah everyday sounds like a lot but sofar it doesnt really count for many days… ahah maybe 15? but yeah. i wanna bball.. but too tired.. ankle started to hurt alittle.. uhh nothing else… tired!

its weird how we sometimes say we know or understand someone. but really… how well do we know that person?

ive never been really religous. i just go through the steps. never cared about going to church. but when i was there it was just going through the motions waiting for that hour to pass. yeah w/e say what you want.. i dont care.. I believe in GOD i dont have to go to church or follow along at mass to show everyone there that i do believe in God. But i actually this time really paid attention to the gospel. but i dont know how it has to relate to any of what i have to say but it made me start thinking.

lets just say the past month.. ive been getting the feeling people around me or know me well in general really dont have a clue who i am. im not saying anyone in specific so dont after reading this blog say ‘oh dang is he talking about me?’ ive been getting the feeling people think i have no heart, or that i dont care about things, or that i dont have a sensitive side.  i just dont like to show or tell the whole world whats going on or how i feel. i HATE the feeling of people feeling bad for me. that is why i dont show i guess that ’side’ of me. but i do have a heart… i do care about things.. i do have a sensitive side… i am a normal human being with feelings and emotions. i dont know i may act funny, tough, stupid, or whatever else you would like to call me. im not saying i dont show that ’side’ of me.. i just do it in a different way.

but dont get me wrong. im not saying whoever feels this way totally doesnt know me. and i in no way am writing this to change a friendship. im thankful for my friends but i thought it was something that should be said to people that might not know me that well. im assuming that the friends that do know me, if they didnt know this about me then a lot of people that dont know me well would think that way too.

IAMME:

I am me and there is no one like me. You can say whatever you want, but I know who I am.

I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. Weather what I do is right or wrong it is up to me.

Everything I do is mine; success or failure I worked for. Everything I do I do for a reason.

If whatever I do does not hurt me or the people around me then I’ll do it.

I decide what I want to do, you may influence me to do other wise but the final decision is mine.

I’m caring, I have patience, I will listen, and I will do whatever I can to be there for someone.

Love me or hate me, this is who I am.

-Jonathan Hwang

(a look back at the Moran IAMME paper)

aha a picture i have on my desk.. me back in 2000.